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what's up "big-time" dj's, male and female? making your way with daddy's money?
  lovely_jgurl
 
02:59am 20/12/2009  
 
mood: gloomy
music: silver sun pickups - "lazy eye"
sometimes you feel like you just don't belong. and you find yourself feeling bad for comparing yourself to others' worth. then you begin to ponder... why is it that their advantages make you feel just a little less? then you remind yourself that is the level or mediocracy and class they created to keep us apart. to glamorize one's skills by means of media and technology and make those capable of attaining those things feel helpless and selfless. It takes alot to come up the ranks and climb through the low ends, with nothing at hand, help with machinery and equipment, you just have to research, research, research and put-forth the effort. if you find that positive mindset, just tell yourself.. "you will have to work 50x's harder then them to achieve that status, but in a few years you will get there, in the mean time just be one with god, he is always there to take care of you." he always those, and who knows in time you might fade off wanting to dedicate your time in certain endeavors, some of those hierarchies do appreciate, but really they still are missing a certain level of understanding unless they chose to put themselves in a humbling place for life's growth or just know god...and the meek shall inherit the earth, it makes you humble. now i am going to head into a sleepless night of effort just for hobbies' sake until i meet my maker. ;-) www.youtube.com/watch 		 
     

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c'monnn holidays...
  nerdy_chipmunk
 
11:56am 14/12/2009  
  Ugh, I haven't felt this unmotivated in such a long time.
I really can't bring myself to get anything done today.
It's a combination of Charlie being way to big to keep sleeping in bed with us and a fight Taylor and I had on Friday night.
I still feel terrible about it. I totally started it and let it get out of hand with my stubbornness.
He was pretty drunk and said something along the lines of "this isn't working out." My heart dropped out of my chest and I remembered what it was like to have a serious heart ache.
We have so much on the line that it's hard to feel like my life wouldn't come crashing down if we were to split up.
I confessed that I've been stressed out with how much we have on our plate and took it out in a wrong way.
The next morning he was talking about how hung over he was and I guess I never really noticed how much he actually drank the night before.
I asked him if he remembers almost breaking up with me, and he said that wasn't what he meant at all.
I still felt a bit crummy throughout the day and didn't want to bring up last nights fight again. He took off around 4:30 for his guys Christmas get together where they rent a limo.
Yes a limo.
I don't understand, but whatever.
They apparently ended up in Niagara falls and went to a restaurant. Taylor ended up drinking too much and puking under the dinner table, and then went back into the limo to sleep for the rest of the night.
I on the other hand was down town for a ladies night organized by Vanessa.
It was super fun and we had dinner and drinks at this restaurant in Parkdale (yes there are some nice restaurants in parkadale) called Cafe Taste.
It's run by two brothers who are experts when it comes to wine. They know their stuff! They match your food to whatever wine you're drinking.
4 bottles of wine later and a delicious cheese fondue we were ready to hit the road. We ended up at Rob and Sparky's dressy Christmas party. We were in luck since we were already dressed up.
It was packed with a bunch of sweet friends and other familiar faces.
Later on I crashed at Hambone and Danielle's place.
Lou and I cuddled and he kept licking my face. I cannot believe that him and Charlie where EVER the same size.

I feel a bit better now after getting the whole "fight" situation off my chest on here.
I'm really trying to not be so sensitive and not to take little gestures too seriously. I think he can tell I feel bad for being a stubborn bitch and am trying my best to make up for it.		  
     

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I'm having a love affair with garlic stuffed olives
  nerdy_chipmunk
 
12:15pm 11/12/2009  
  Winter is definitely here now.
I spun out going 10k on an off ramp. Black ice. Gotta love it.
Luckily I didn't hit anything.
Also Charlie's first time playing in snow, so damn cute.
I love her more than anything.

There weren't any good antique finds today, but to be honest I didn't really look that hard. Work is keeping me busy.
However I did get a friend request today from one of the creepiest people EVER.
In his request he says that he hopes I found God and let him save me.
Awesome. Now he's a religious nut job.
He was this guy in high school that was a year older than me, very shy, never spoke to anyone ever, got picked on a lot.
He was in my biology class and I always made a point of saying hi to him.
I guess he got more comfortable with me and starting saying hi to me in the hallways.
I will point out that Monica warned me about being nice to "loner" people like him because there may be an actual reason why he doesn't talk to anyone.
Anyway, it got to a point where if he was saying hi to me in the hallways and i didn't see him he would grab my arm forcefully. It started getting a little weird so I started avoiding him.
Summer came and he graduated while I still had to finish my last year.
I was running some errands in the summer with my mum and ran into him.
I remember him asking for my phone number and I told him I don't really give it out. Later on that week Cole calls to tell me that he ran into crazy Shant and how Shant said I gave him my number but he lost it and wanted to know if Cole would give it to him. Luckily Cole didn't give that crazy asshole my number.
Anyway somehow crazy Shant gets my email and starts messaging me all the time, would show up at school (which he no longer attends) and would wait for me by my locker. I remember Monica seeing this happen once and shouted out "Maria! I gotta take a shit, come with me!" hahaha. Best ever.
This all goes on for a while until he tells me that he knows where i live, he's going to break into my house, tie me to a chair and try on my stockings.
That's pretty much where I draw the line. No one tries on MY stockings!! haha.
I told him if I ever even saw him on my street I'd break his fucking face.

I totally forgot about all this till I received his friend request today on facebook. Apparently he now loves God. I think people who are straight up batshit crazy try to justify their insanity by using God as an excuse.

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=509236523#/profile.php?id=509236523&__a=1&_fb_iframe_path=%2Fprofile.php

If you don't believe me, check out his profile photos and how he's comments on them himself, about 10x in a row or so.		  
     

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Antique finds of the day...
  nerdy_chipmunk
 
12:06pm 10/12/2009  
  hello, hello...
the search started off slow, but then began to spot more and more neat things.



Weird that I should come across these on craigs list today when I was just looking at light fixtures like these yesterday.
This lil beauty antique colonial brushed brass fixture from late 1920's is going for $35. Great price. BUT it's way east of where I live and would cost too much in gas. Plus now with snow on the roads travel time to anywhere has doubled, and in some places trippled.


Such sweet bookends! They run for $50. Pricy, but real pretty.


$14. Cute and you can do a lot of neat things with it.


$16. I like it. It reminds me of the replica Adam Savage (from Mythbustes) was talking about on Ted Talk. Even though it wasn't an owl but a maltese falcon.


I love this fan. I have one almost identical somewhere in my parent's basement. This one seems to be in great shape and will run you $30, which is not bad for this type of antique fan.


$19 seems a bit much but I can't help but think how pretty some hydrangeas would look in this.


Even though they're all paint chipped, they're super cute!
$4.95 for all 4 mugs. Stick some home made cookies in it, and give them away each as a gift.


$23. Maybe it's just because I'm a bike nerd, but this antique pump is sweet.


$87 is a real good price for this beauty of a type writer. I've seen ones for so much more and not nearly as beautiful.
I have an old type writer, not as nice as this one, but I found mine at the side of the road and in perfect condition. Can't complain!


I have a jug pretty much identical to this, minus the sticker.
Got it for free of craigs list. Stuffed it with winter red berry branches, and some pine braches. This one pictured above will run you $32.


I don't know what it is about old sewing drawers, i just love them!
You can find a few different uses for them. You could even fill them with soil and make a planter out of them. These ones will run you $14 each.

That's all for today folks!		  
     

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  eeku
 
 

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